“Everything that was compressed underneath is now healing, and the cracks are bathed in gold, like on kintsugi objects.”

"From photographs of me now, one might perhaps detect the irreversible changes that the bottlenecks of the healthcare system caused to some extent. But hopefully you will instead see the results of the medication, the support of the people close to me, and how well I now feel in my own skin. I still have a long way to go before I see myself fully in the mirror and in photographs, but I carry that reality and that dream burning in my chest. The people closest to me fuel that flame by recognizing and valuing my true existence. Now, on the other side of the waiting period, the good days are more numerous than the bad ones. From the first day of hormone treatment, my existence improved, and I felt as though an enormous burden had been lifted from me.”

It blows, it rains, but it always clears up and becomes calm!

“It is a gift to exist, and the accompanying wounded and aging shape us into more wholesome and more unique people. Trans existence is unique, and I hope to see more unique people like myself in the future, and that all restrictions will disappear, even though the world often seems to be heading toward hell around us these days. One song that carried me furthest through the accompanying sadness on the playlists was 'paồ styttir alltaf upp' by Raggi Bjarna. It repeat the messages of finding comfort and love to hold onto among all the storms.”

All the best, Alexía Stjarna